It’s shocking how young you can feel

I am the youngest in the waiting room by about 40 years. One girl just left the chemo room who was probably 5 or 10 years older than me. Every time I make eye contact with another person in the room, they give me this sad smile.

Very depressing.

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2 comments on “It’s shocking how young you can feel
  1. Lilly (NeoLilly from the lymphoma forum) says:

    This post really hit home to me. I know EXACTLY how you feel, only you are even younger then I am so it could only be worse for you yet. I am 29 and when I first started treatment one of the hardest things for me was seriously the waiting room. I hated it. I hated being surrounded by old people, it made me angry. VERY angry. I even broke down crying about it to the social worker once. Now looking back it seems kind of silly in a way. Not the fact itself but that it upset me so much.

    Talk about feeling young, a year ago I was dreading my 30th birthday and (dare I say it?) thought to myself how OLD I was going to be… now with my 30th birthday still a month and a half away (and feeling like I have aged a lifetime in just this past 6 months) I feel so incredibly YOUNG.

    I am glad I found your blog. This will be a great outlet for you. If you ever want to chat I am here to give you any support that I can. (email me or find me on the forum, right now I check it daily) I just finished chemo a little over a month ago. I did 6 cycles. I am now in the middle of doing 3wks of radiation. What I want you to know, is that in the beginning it can feel like there is going to be no end to the treatments, but there IS… and you will get there and you will be a stronger woman for it!

  2. Virginia says:

    Yes, i remember going in to the chemo waiting room with my 25 year old son and feeling the eyes on us–I could only think they must have thought it was a son bringing his mom in for chemo and not the other way around. I wish it had been that way, and it FELT like it should have been. Yes, very depressing to feel that little shift in the room (0r at least i imagined it as such)…ah, it’s the son…

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