My first round of chemo is on Friday and I’m already nervous about it. A few weeks ago, I had a chemo teach-in which could most be likened to a “scare you straight” program. I understand that all the possible complications and side effects need to be discussed, and there’s not exactly anything fun about chemo, but it’s terrifying all the same. I’ve been told to expect mouth sores, body pain that no painkiller will touch, nausea, conflicting GI issues (no need to explain there 😉 ), inability to eat, fatigue, and weakness that will leave me unable to leave bed for days at a time. Sounds like a blast.
I didn’t go to a super fun social event with a bunch of friends this weekend because I have it worked up in my head that this weekend will be my last “good” weekend in a year. This probably isn’t true, but the mere thought makes me incredibly antisocial.
Not knowing what to expect is the worst.