I haven’t forgotten about blogging! I’ve felt more tired lately (the beginnings of chemo fatigue?) and haven’t been in a blogging mood.
I do have some good news! My blood work is so good that I don’t need to go back every week- I just have to go every other week for chemo and get my bloodwork done then. My tumor on my collar bone is gone and the one in my armpit has drastically shrunk- as in right now, my armpit is still swollen but I can’t feel a mass anymore. I could have my mid-treatment scan as early as May! A clean PET scan can mean only 2 more months of chemo, so this would be excellent of course. Radiation is still up in the air.
Last week I chopped off all of my hair. Or, rather, my friend Meaux chopped off my hair. A bunch of friends all came over to Geekhaus (my boyfriend’s apartment) and brought craft beer with them. After some liquid courage, I let Meaux cut it and then trim it short with buzzers. I have about an inch of hair so at least as it falls out, it looks more akin to my cat shedding than losing foot long strands of hair everywhere.
Leave it to me to have a party before I do something potentially traumatic.
So now it’s short. And honestly, it’s not awful. I thought it would look horrific since I’m quite a fan of my long hair, but for now it doesn’t look bad. I have been told by several people that I might have some pixie cuts in my future. Probably not- I want to take advantage of this curly post-chemo hair I keep hearing about- but it’s good that my naked head doesn’t look as bad as I expected. Plus I’m getting to use my bandanas as headbands!
My last chemo was Friday which seems to take a bit more out of me than the one before that. Diane from Cupcakory brought me and the rest of the cancer center 2 dozen cupcakes. Thank you so much! The nurses, other patients, families/friends, and most importantly- me!- loved the cupcakes. Especially the salted caramel… mmm mmm.
Yesterday I went out for dim sum with my brother and his girlfriend, and afterward did some shopping.
Even with short hair suiting me, I feel a lot less feminine without hair. Of course, it’s not like I did much beyond pull my hair back on a good day when it was long, but it still made me easily look “womanly”. I think that in order to feel good about my appearance, I need to wear makeup on a more regular basis. I know the people I see on a daily basis are happy that I’m just up and about and not really concerned with how I look, but it makes me feel better.
Plus it gave me an excuse to visit Sephora. That store is dangerous.
I’m looking forward to a week where I don’t have anything to do with the doctor’s office. I’m finally kicking the end-of-a-cold cough that’s been nagging me for the past 2 weeks and warm weather is on it’s way!